sadness...dissapointment...desperation...hopeless

today is bad day ...
i try to ask myself : am i still suitable in this world ?
is it the time to leave ?

i'm tired...
i want to give up ...
this world is cruel ...
i can't believe anyone ...
a friend ask me : she is your friend , why don't you believe her ?
i say : no , i only believe in myself .
its tiring ...
everytime , i try to be optimistic , be good ...
but in vain...
sometimes , i really want to leave this world ...
but i have too many that haven't done .

Friends are important ...
i'm very happy that some of my friends had found their best friend , but not me...
i find , and find , and find ... but she/he is not here yet ...

this whole week for me is terrible ...
really terrible ...
but i can't say it out ...
i just can say it for myself : be patient

i hope everything will be all right ...
then , maybe one day ...
i can leave them without any regrets ...

when the time is ready ,
when i'm too tired ,
then its the time for me to leave ...