sadness...dissapointment...desperation...hopeless

today is bad day ...
i try to ask myself : am i still suitable in this world ?
is it the time to leave ?

i'm tired...
i want to give up ...
this world is cruel ...
i can't believe anyone ...
a friend ask me : she is your friend , why don't you believe her ?
i say : no , i only believe in myself .
its tiring ...
everytime , i try to be optimistic , be good ...
but in vain...
sometimes , i really want to leave this world ...
but i have too many that haven't done .

Friends are important ...
i'm very happy that some of my friends had found their best friend , but not me...
i find , and find , and find ... but she/he is not here yet ...

this whole week for me is terrible ...
really terrible ...
but i can't say it out ...
i just can say it for myself : be patient

i hope everything will be all right ...
then , maybe one day ...
i can leave them without any regrets ...

when the time is ready ,
when i'm too tired ,
then its the time for me to leave ...

yahoo ! finally the stupid exam is over !
today is Sunday , but most of the result will be given tomorrow...
hz...

these 2 weeks were reallllly terrible ...
today is Sunday !
but still very sad today...
I WANNA SEE MY LEE MINHO !!!
HE IS COMING TO MALAYSIA !!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but i don't have the luck to see him ... although he is my husband ...
last friday , xinying,yeeli,and miss tham went to parade to buy dunno wat mask or whatever ,
they got a LEE MINHO'S file !!!
only me , can see but cannot touch ...
really TERRIBLE , HORRIBLE and VEGETABLE ...

the MOST TERRIBLE is ...
my mum is going to kl , without telling me ...
ish...make me so angry ...

EXAM IS HORRIBLE !!!
although its over , but the result is more HORRIBLE ...
maybe will fail some of the subjects ...

BIOLOGY is important ,
if not , i'll have say bye bye to Mano ...
hope this time will do better,
maybe i can't see you anymore :]

alas ... LEE MINHO !!!
and almost forgot , my most important HUSBAND ...
LEE DONGHAE !
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY !!!
I LOVE YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Still have ONE week ...

I don't like to say but its really only have ONE week before my exam ...

hz ...

sure this time will die ...

haven START some of the subjects ... OMG ...

but i'll try ... to get sacrifice some playing time to study ...

I'LL TRY !!!

i'll try............................

wooooowwwww, thursday that day was FANTASTIC !

i saw him again ! He was there again !!!

oooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

can't wait for NEXT THURSDAY !!!!!!!

ARGH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NEXT !

thanks to jinhru shii and yiwen shii ,

we were given an idea on how to solve our problems ...

i think it can work on us , but don't know it works on HER or not ...

we can't afford to have our gathering at KOREAN BBQ ... { our gang's money pocket is lacked of money }

instead of bbq , we'll just have mcd ... sobx ...

we will be having it right after the exam , hopefully ...

i hope it works !

we are thinking idea to solve all these petty problems ...

but now I HAVE TO CONCENTRATE IN MY STUDIES !!!!

BM :my kata kosa is bad

BI : my vocab is bad

BC : i hate the teacher...but i love chinese :]

MATHS : not sure ...

ADD MATHS : my mum and dad said no eyes to see

CHEMI : erm...chapter 1-7 not und , others ok ...

BIO : i'm just waiting for the thursday bio class =]

PHYSICS : waiting to say bye ... byebye ...

SEJARAH : i'll read it if all the islamic chapters are not included...

MORAL : i'll try to get 60 above if no need to memorise bidang 1-7

SIVIK : thanks to teacher , i hate sivik :]

PJ : speechless ...